autumn twilight
… where the water meets the sea, between the worlds, within the void …autumn twilight
… where the water meets the sea, between the worlds, within the void …A Message about Denial
Last week I noticed an odd number of hits on a post I made about a year ago. 2009 06 30: Channeled messages The post is a group of channeled messages, some of them general some of them pretty specific and targeted towards me. One of these messages I had completely forgotten about, but is eerily relevant to my processes lately.
School yourself to patience as you have before. And school yourself to denial. The path of the ascetic has lessons which you have not learned. Avoid not desire, but recognize the pursuit of desire differs from the pursuit of the wrong. Desire is good, a strong pull and a stronger knowledge. But choose to pursue the desire that drives you, not the desire that is driven.
We will hold you in our hearts as you hold us. Know that no force can withstand your pursuit of desire if you understand the power of denial.
Rebalancing, Moving with Spirit
This is how it goes sometimes. Life swings back and forth between relative extremes and you just try to keep up. Last night I decided I need to spend a little more time in active spiritual practice. Lately my practice has been focused almost entirely on two things. First, self-transformation and development. I’ve been practicing abstinence, discipline, keeping track of how I spend my time, and of course hacking my lifestyle to create lasting habits of weight loss and better diet. Second, teaching. I’ve put a lot of my spiritual and magical eggs in the teachers basket the last few months. The last five weeks in particular, but it’s been revving up for about 3 months. It will, I think, rev down for another month or so, but I can already feel the energy shifting away from teaching. Rather, the energy is being rebalanced so that teaching is not taking such a generous portion of my energy.
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vocational legacy
It’s the first day of June. Summer has officially begun. Well, it’s the first night of June. 1:38 am. I can’t sleep. The moon is waning, but her light is still bright in the sky. Bright enough to keep my overactive thoughts a churning long past when I should have been asleep. I’m pondering things that I can’t share with the public, so why I’m writing I’m not even sure. I guess I hope that by writing something I’ll be able to put my mind at rest so I can eventually get to sleep.
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The Virtue of Constancy
The word constancy keeps coming up for me lately. I’ve been considering the dangers and benefits of considering constancy a good thing. One of the dangers is a big problem for American politics, and American culture in general in my opinion. I’m referring to constancy of belief. We have this concept that is very prevalent right now, that anyone whose opinion or belief evolves or changes over time is a flip-flopper. That they have no convictions or strength of character. That they don’t stand for anything.
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Teaching is rewarding to me
I’m in the middle of teaching a course that my brother Ollen and I designed. It’s a 5 session introduction to seership and journeywork designed to take a student from zero to competency in the course of 10 weeks. Last night was session two, and I’m already amazed by the progress the attendees are making and the great experiences everyone is having. … read the rest