autumn twilight
… where the water meets the sea, between the worlds, within the void …autumn twilight
… where the water meets the sea, between the worlds, within the void …Feeling good: Today and the Future.
I got a voice message this morning from one of my teachers with a reminder of a few things for Saturday. Some of it was garbled so I need to call him back to get it clear. Five days till initiation, I’m a little nervous. I’ve been more and more energetically and psychically sensitive for the last several days. Yesterday afternoon and this morning I’m a little hyper-sensitive. Loud noises and bright light seems overwhelming and a little bit painful. I pray for the day when I get more conditioned to this hyper-awareness.
Despite being a little nervous and oversensitive, I feel really well. I haven’t done as much preparation as I’d like, but I feel secure and confident. I feel connected and active in the light of the divine. There is always more to be done, but this morning I feel rested and alive, ready to face whatever may come.
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The invention of free will
I had an interesting discussion with @shivian via IM and another with @herbisorbis and @fenifuego via Twitter earlier today. It was theoretical, philisophical, and if some people are to be believed, probably masturbatory.
The discussion revolved first around the concept of True Will, or Higher Will, and whether or not it was possible to be out of alignment with that will. To Thelemites it obviously is. I’m not so certain I agree.
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Congruence, Alignment, Illusion
It’s after midnight again, and I’m not really tired at all. I’m in a bit of a mellow, contemplative, self-questioning mood.
Late last week I was thinking a lot about how we define ourselves. I often hear and say the phrase “be true to myself.” I was wondering what that really means.
At an observable level we’re talking very clearly about being true to our ethical or moral stance and our character. We’re talking about acting in congruence. But upon examination I run into some challenges here.
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building the stage
It’s quickly approaching 1 in the morning. It’s been several days since I’ve blogged anything. Not from lack of things to say; I’ve simply been far too busy to stop and put things down. The downtime I have had has been filled with the exhaustive work of being lazy.
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A bit of Mental spillage
I got the good seat on the train this morning, the single one in the back of the car. The train is actually pretty deserted, it might be because it’s almost nine. Not sure, but I like that it’s not crowded.
I feel a bit handicapped right now. I think I did a bit too much walking/exercise on Tuesday, because yesterday my calves started to tighten up, and by midnight last night they were so tight I had trouble getting up from where I was sitting on the floor. It took me several moments to manage standing up without feeling like I was about to fall over or hurting incredibly badly. They’re just as tight this morning, I’m hoping they relax a little during the day.
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