autumn twilight
… where the water meets the sea, between the worlds, within the void …autumn twilight
… where the water meets the sea, between the worlds, within the void …chasing slavery
I believe that one of the most important things in anyones life is congruence. It is vital to the spirit that we live in accord with our beliefs, philosophy, and worldview. Coming to congruence, though, is not an easy task. When it comes down to it, finding congruence is really the culmination of Jungian individuation. When a person has fully defined him or herself and their relationship to the world, he must then live fully in that definition to be congruent. Anything that he or she does that is outside that understanding rings false.
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IML, feeling fat, other thoughts
It’s been a few days. I would say that they’ve been busy, but that’s an excuse. The truth is I’ve been too lazy to write. By lazy I mean that I’ve been working on trying to untangle the mess of objects the Crystal API consists of. Note to self: dev an open-source API against the crystal object model once I get my head wrapped around it.
Also, the new moon is officially passed, which is nice. Today I started feeling like myself again, which is to say that I wasn’t manic or absurdly depressed. It’s clear that I need to explore my relationship with the cycles of the moon a bit more thuroughly, this depressive cycle has gotten noticably worse in the last year, and I don’t think I like it.
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a lesson i keep on learning
Earlier today I came face to face with the realization that I have a life-changing ritual to take part in less than a month from now. Immediately I began to dread it and think about how stressful it is, and how much work I have to do to prepare. I began to prepare just a bit tonight, just to get started. It didn’t feel like an ominous task, or even a burden, but I began resenting it. I was angry and annoyed that I had to put forth this effort.
Then I thought of something. This is what I want to do. Nobody is making me do this. Nobody is forcing me against my will to do this work. It is the work of my life and it is what I want to do more than anything else. So why am I feeling put upon by it?
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a little goal and a lot of effort.
Horny again this morning, but not as crazy as yesterday. I’m really pleased because it seems that my physical endurance is finally starting to improve noticably on account of the karate. Last night and last thursday both felt like hard work, but neither of them left me exhausted. This morning I’m only the slightest bit weak in a few muscles and I haven’t found any sore or stiff spots yet.
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a sex fantasy: how magic comes to life
Please note: the below post has some mature content in it. Do not read if you are likely to be offended by it.
As I walked out of work, I was smiling to myself because I’ve been having kinky thoughts all day and some of yesterday. I thought, “Sometimes I think rope is my best friend.” In jest of course, but it is not far from the truth. I love kink in a kaleidoscope of forms and patterns, and rope is one of the most base elements of those celebrated experiences.
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