I was dealing with some anxiety last night. Karate helped a lot, but I was still kind of angsty when I got home. After eating and putting brownies in the oven, I went into the main room to meditate. After centering and grounding, Persephone came and told me to lie down. I wasn’t sure what to expect, but did so, and was slowly coaxed into the hanged-man position.

I lay there for quite some time, and my mind was rather blank. If I was thinking of anything I am having trouble recalling it now. I let go of the anxiety and focused on accepting the support and help of my goddess and the spirits around me. When I was feeling peaceful and ready I stood up and faced the mirror. Looking into it I could see spirits moving around me, and inside me. Behind my eyes.

I sat down at the computer, opened darkroom, and began to type. (I channel best either writing or typing). At least six different spirits (some of which were pluralities not individuals) made themselves known and shared messages. Some of these are not for public consumption, but the ones below are. I’ll refrain from interpretation and just post them unedited (except for removing the not-for public parts) as they came through.

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There is darkness in our soul.

It is not something to fear, although fear it we do, because we are taught that all darkness is the source of all pain.

There is darkness in our soul.

A shared humour, legacy of the source of creation. There is a place in us that we dare not tread, where the power to create lies.

There is darkness in our soul.

We yearn for the peace of the limitless light, seeking it with the fervor of the fanatic. But can not find it without passing through that dark night.

There is darkness in our soul.

We are not one people. We are many peoples. We are the people of this place, and of other places. We are the people who have walked this land, and the realms between. We are the one who has sat astride the stars and founded the birthings of a hundred worlds.

There is darkness in our soul.

We know no pain there, and no loss. Only quiet. There is darkness and it consumes us as we run, devouring the shadows that we cast to it in hopes of sating the lust which drives it.

There is darkness in our soul.

We do not fear any longer. And nor should you. Know the journey across that chasm and know the light. Unify the opposites.

There is darkness in our soul.
There is no darkness.

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Accept, do not Will. Allow, do not cause. Perceive, do not display.

The art is not one of method or of force. The art is not of power. The art is of acceptance. The art is of allowance. The art is of perception. And above all, the art is of unification. Connection you understand, but this is a beginning, not the end.

Flee from the balance of opposites, and unify them. Move beyond discernment and into understanding.

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And here we sit, but a shadow upon the wall of time. Sitting in the ashes of creation, destroyed as was all.

Alive, Alone, and Aware.

You are not alone, any more than you have ever been. Open your eyes. See us, we, hear us, we, know us, we. Listen and know. Be not alone.

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This in thine time is known, there was a shadow that has now been lifted. You shall know peace, and you shall not struggle. Only choose to stand tall and proud, unafraid of the world, and unrequiring of the recognition you so do desire.

School yourself to patience as you have before. And school yourself to denial. The path of the ascetic has lessons which you have not learned. Avoid not desire, but recognize the pursuit of desire differs from the pursuit of the wrong. Desire is good, a strong pull and a stronger knowledge. But choose to pursue the desire that drives you, not the desire that is driven.

We will hold you in our hearts as you hold us. Know that no force can withstand your pursuit of desire if you understand the power of denial.