autumn twilight

Have you ever wondered what it would be like to be someone else? To trade lives with someone you envy? Or someone you despise? The Prince and the Pauper (the book, not the movie) covers the concept well, and the gist is that the grass is always greener.

But it’s a source of constant fascination to me. It’s also one of the reasons I write so much. Writing helps me discover myself. Not just who I am and what my feelings are. It helps me learn about the way I’m living. Writing informs my understanding of myself and everything I do. It also helps me learn to describe my life to people who want to know about it. So what do you do theo? Why are you always so busy?

I’m busy because free time is less important to me than the work that I’m doing. I work 40 hours a week for a hedge fund administration group, developing their internal applications. I write between 30 minutes and 2 hours a day. I spend between 1 and 6 nights a week doing work for the Brotherhood of the Phoenix. I spend time meditating, and journeying. I spend time sitting on the floor in the living room, or on the counter in the kitchen, talking to my friends and family. I’m not ordained yet, but I seem to be becoming the family priest.

In a couple of months I will no longer be a member of the Brotherhoods Board of Directors. I’ve been an administrator for three years, and I am taking time now to focus on my own work. I need to put in some career time to develop some new skills and make a name for myself as a developer. I also need the time that this will free up to focus on being trained as a clergyman, and prepared for ordination sometime in the next year and a half.

So while I anticipate some more free time soon, I don’t really anticipate that time being free. I have lots of things I can easily use to fill up that space. I am greatly looking forward to doing them though.