2007 ends soon…
Ξ December 29th, 2007 | → | ∇ Philosophy |
It’s hard to believe that 2007 is almost over. Today is the 29th. George and I spent a good two or three hours cleaning the study and living room. Everything is in order, and it feels really good. I have that general feeling of well being that I get when everything is working out the way it should be.
I’ve spent far too much time surviving lately. It feels like I haven’t had time to just sit down and think, or talk with my family. Every minute has been spent worrying about one thing or another. Fulfilling one obligation or another. I have been feeling cast adrift, and I didn’t really know why.
I’m not sure I know the answer now, but I have some more thoughts. Daniel emailed my fellow students and I the other day on the subject of energy exchange. It’s a discussion of balance, appreciation, and recognition. I like to think that I understand energy exchange. In fact, I know I do. The process makes sense to me, physically, metaphysically, and esoterically. But I realize that I have not paid it the attention I should have, not truly.
I’m not saying that I haven’t been conscious of my debts in this world, nor that I haven’t taken the time and care to create balance where I can. But I do recognize that I have not properly invested in some elements of energy exchange. Most keenly, I have not invested in myself. I have not given myself the attention, recognition, and appreciation I need. I have not given my God(s) the attention they deserve, and so it makes sense that I feel adrift from them.
I recognize that there are reasons why the major religions of the world have contemplatives. It is because God, for lack of a better term, must have the focus of his devotees to work in the world. Contemplatives have the beauty of spirit to turn their thoughts solely to the glory of God. They create a void that God may fill with his acts.
We would do well to learn from these patterns. Though it is not feasible for me to turn my eyes to my gods each moment, I would do well to turn my eyes to them more often. And to my ancestors, and to my spirits. I would do well to honor them and myself by attention. As would you.
