random stuff — my day
Ξ July 29th, 2008 | → | ∇ General |
it’s 7:40 and I’m on the el home. I’m missing a meeting as I write this. I got stuck at work late and couldn’t make it. I hate it when that happens.
I’ll probably get home and go get some food around 8:30 or so. I’ve got a full week ahead of me. Tomorrow is the only evening that I don’t have a commitment after I get off work. Exciting!
I’ve been thinking a lot about authority figures. I began writing an essay on authority and it’s relationship to neo-pagan religion, particularly my experiences with the Brotherhood the other day. The same issue has been rising for me for months now. Authority is a bias that only I can assign, and ultimately nobody has authority over my life but me. I’ve encountered numerous issues where I’ve had to challenge or flout authority in the past year.
On Sunday I went to Patrick’s second Saturn return celebration and joined in community to welcome him to elderhood. One of the themes of the afternoon was the recognition of self-authority instead of external authority, and this is typically one of the lessons of Saturn’s first return (which is probably near for me, if not already present, being 28 now).
I’ve been realizing that just becuase I respect and often agree with one method of doing something, or with one mode of behavior, doesn’t mean I have to always agree with it or obey it’s tenets.
I’m meeting with Coriander later this week for some more training in ceremonial magic, which is very exciting. I’ve been having some success lately with balancing the strict structure of ceremonial magic and ritual with my own tendency towards wild energy. I’ve also had some revelations and reminders about using/channeling the energy of godhead through ceremonial magic, which is counter to my natural instinct.
I’m listening to the soundtrack to Fame! the Musical. It’s a lot of fun. Most people think it’s cheesy, and it is, but it’s very enjoyable to me.
This is kind of a random catch-all post. I’m in that sort of scattered mood. I need to put some thought into Kevin as well. Just turn my attention towards him and the spirits around him so I can best serve him tonight and in the future. John is joining us for dinner, so that will be fun. I’m not sure what I want to eat. Probably chicken strips, cause they’re delicious. Or maybe Kevin and I will split a pizza, if he likes the same shit i do.
